Here I am again!

Hello!

Last weekend I was on a family weekend, so I was stuck with them for over two days. Well okay, not really stuck, but my family differs somehow from most families. Anyways, I have a niece, only a few months old. And literally every time I came even a little bit close to her, she started crying. Quite an awkward moment to be honest! Luckily not all babies do so. And I really like kids, so when I get older I would love to get children myself. Okay, that’s the random fact of this time.

At the moment I don’t really know what I exactly feel. The first moment I’m all happy and stuff, but the next moment I have no clue. So what happened since my last post:

We talked via chat. And that’s sort of it. I have tried to get to know what she actually thinks, but I can’t really find out… I did tell I still like her, but I couldn’t figure out what her reaction meant. So I’m sort of in the middle of two worlds. Partially in a happy world of amazing stuff, and partially in a world of sadness and loneness. Well okay, my friends are there for me when I need them, but it still feels like I’m alone in some way.

I’m slowly starting to prepare myself for the worst. I hope for the best, which is quite logical, but I fear that I blew it all. I blew everything in actually fifteen minutes. And why didn’t I do it better? I don’t know. That’s the stupidest part. I blew it myself and I don’t know why.

So okay.

Hope the best, fear the worst.

See you later!

This is where my story will begin.

Ello. My name is Sander. I’ve always wanted to be a writer of some kind. In first case I tried to be a novelist, but that didn’t quite work out. I did start on it, but after a page of two I quit writing. A few days ago an idea came up in me, namely to become a blogger. At first I had no idea what about, but then life came knocking at my door. So I opened and started a new life adventure, and I feel like sharing my story.

So this is sort of what happened. Somewhere, almost out of nothing, there appeared a girl. She liked me and I liked her. We started to talk more and more and we discovered that we had several things in common. I was really excited about what this could become. Nevertheless, I was oh so nervous as we did not yet meet. This whole story will sound all crazy and stupid, but it’s not less true. It felt like this was finally it.

We were lucky though, with some kind of coincidence we could meet within a very short time (although it felt like months). So we were both really excited about what would happen. Well, at least I was. And so we met. But there was one negative thing we had in common... We are both shy in front of new people. Very little was said and nothing actually happened. Right now we are thinking what we will be doing next. We could try again or just try to forget all about it. I will probably just have to wait some time before I know what will happen. I do hope for the best, to be honest.

And that’s my story. So far...